I have never experienced grief previously,but I assumed I would be able to move on after my Mother's death in April ,2013.But I proved to myself that all my assumptions were terribly wrong.The loss of my Mother is unbearable and the pain is excruciating.
It has been almost two years since she was diagnosed with Brain Tumor.Already two surgeries were done, but there was no hope left as the tumor continued to grow. We all knew it was coming one day or other, but I just didn't want to think that my mother would soon be leaving us. So I was least bothered about all these and lived normally as if nothing happened to her. And one day without even saying anything she left this world.
Grief is different from person to person and from relationship to relationship. I did not have any idea about what would occur during the care taking process and I was prepared to allow my mother to travel in her new world while I attempted to observe and understand her journey and care for this new spirit who was now my mother. I did not deny the anticipated grief to come. I just did not prepare myself for the differences in the grief and the issues to be faced after her death.
But now shes gone into another life and I have to live with the truth that her physical self is not there anymore. But I live with the hope that her spirit is still with me,
Comforting me
Caring me
Scolding me
Hugging me
Loving me
Being with me every moment...
I love you Mumma..............
It has been almost two years since she was diagnosed with Brain Tumor.Already two surgeries were done, but there was no hope left as the tumor continued to grow. We all knew it was coming one day or other, but I just didn't want to think that my mother would soon be leaving us. So I was least bothered about all these and lived normally as if nothing happened to her. And one day without even saying anything she left this world.
Grief is different from person to person and from relationship to relationship. I did not have any idea about what would occur during the care taking process and I was prepared to allow my mother to travel in her new world while I attempted to observe and understand her journey and care for this new spirit who was now my mother. I did not deny the anticipated grief to come. I just did not prepare myself for the differences in the grief and the issues to be faced after her death.
But now shes gone into another life and I have to live with the truth that her physical self is not there anymore. But I live with the hope that her spirit is still with me,
Comforting me
Caring me
Scolding me
Hugging me
Loving me
Being with me every moment...
I love you Mumma..............
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