Feelings

All you need is a cup of love,
to survive, to hope,to live for..
We all hold on this feeling that make us purge forward...

Even after all these years,
I still wake up sometimes thinking we are still together!

When reality hits me, I die a little everyday!!
 

little princess

There she was , in the most beautiful dress a girl could ever imagine,
but he was not in her right side,
to hold her hand,
to comfort her...
tears rolled down her pretty cheeks,
memories flooded her vision...
Dad's little princess...
here I am..
Where are you Paa...

In same situation again

Things go wrong everyday in your life... Screwed up days, feeling cheated, Failed relationships and betrayals.

Why do these happen to me always or is it me allowing to happen it to me??

Everyone of us will have our share of ups and downs, that's Life. But if history keeps repeating itself and we keep finding ourselves in bad situations again and again, I think we need to take a better look at ourselves and reflect. Maybe you are too stubborn everytime, maybe you are too much of a careless risk-taker, maybe you are too insistent in your own beliefs, maybe you are too temperamental, maybe you are too naive...maybe maybe maybe...

All these maybe sort of things are filled with questions that are unanswered. I hunt for the answers all around while the answer to my every question is sitting right next to me, just that I dont have the courage to open my mouth and ask these questions. Who knows what will happen next, where will these lead to, how will i face it afterwards!!!

All these bugging questions for which i got no answer for. 

So its always easy to pretend nothing ever happened and I wonder if things will ever be the same again!! 



Maybe I do  have a problem.


You are the master of your own destiny and you live with the consequences of your choices. You are what you want to be and no one owns you a living. Instead of asking/blaming/whinning why bad situations seem to fancy you, maybe you should wonder why it is always you and not anyone else.

Stop being a victim to yourself.

Lectures are easy to give for but its hard to live it through everyday...and thats what I am doing rightnow!!!!

New found Joy

I see her sitting on the bench everyday 

As I pass by her on way back home from college. 

I don't know how she survives the cold night,

with no one by her side even to hold her tight.

She wears her blue jacket and smokes weed,

letting herself into world of dreams.

Life is real bad indeed, 

She's got no home to go

and there's no one to blame!

I walked past her with a coffee and burger

came back and offered her the same 

 I saw her smiling,

with a twinkle in her eyes

and all she said was

have a goodnight Child!!

Oh yes! I know it will be....

P.S : for the old homeless lady I met in queen street today, who showed me a smile can really change your life. And the joy of giving is simply amazing....Help someone feel the joy....

Kitchen Innovations- 1

Trying and being flop and sometimes rocking in my new dishes lately, after all when u have no job and sitting in home cold u try all sorts of innovations!! the best part I got few guinea pigs to experiment my dishes haa... juz a handful of friends who eats without questioning..luv u guys!!

Its been weeks since that cauliflower was left in fridge, no one to look after tossing it from one side to another. This discrimination had to stop, they had to pay for what they did to poor gobi! So I made them eat it...taaraaaaa....

And This is how it goes
1. Cut gobi and aloo and fry it in a pan using oil
2.In a bowl add 1 tp coriander powder,turmeric,chilli,ginger-garlic paste add little water and make a paste
3.In a thick bottom pan heat oil and add cumin seeds, when it splutters add chopped onions
4. When onions brown add masala paste in step 2 and salt.
5.When oil starts separating add fried aloo n gobi and allow to cook for 10 mts.
6.When done garnish with coriander leaves!!

Last verdict

After a long night of sleeplessness and thinking for hours under my shower, I have decided to give up my adult hood. I would once again like to go back being the 7-year-old.I want to go out riding my BSA champ . I want to run to my tree house thinking this is my kingdom. I want to jump into the mud pile across land and take a plunge into small stream nearby home. I wish to go back to a time when life was simple.When all you knew were colors, jungle book, shaktiman, collecting cricket cards, stickers and a large box with a pile of worthless things used to be your most prized possessions someday. I wish to go back to the time when I believed fairies existed, pretended hulk to be your best friend and make up stories. Nothing ever bothered you because you didn’t know and you didn’t care.

All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.I want to think the world is all fun and laughter.I wish to believe anything is possible.I don’t want my day to consist of facebooking, watsapping, immersed inside the world of my little phone. I dont want to hear depressing news, how to survive more days in the month with no money in the bank,illness, and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in  friendship, innocence,dreams, imagination and humanity. I want to be me...

So…here’s my last verdict....

I am officially resigning from adulthood. Catch me if you can because I aint got no intention of turning back....

Lost in cold

In midst of this dark room ,I lay staring up,so cold and numb
tucked beneath a pile of dreams. I dont feel anything, anymore and there's no pain, no grief
Ive lost myself somewhere out there in the dark...Ive stopped fighting this feeling of numbness a long time ago..Now its time for me to let go..Let go of the past Let go of the memories....
And I drift away slowly to the tunnel through the dark hallway...
Suddenly I see a veil of light at end of tunnel....
Hang in there girl...echoed in my mind!!!

Droplets

Lock away the sadness,
Erase the tears,
Hide your fears
Wipe away those droplets
Never let them see

Never let them know

Let it be hidden 

forever in the land of sorrow & despair

Last Sunday

My Sunday is sad,
I miss him real bad.

I played the song,
 he likes the most..

My love do not weep
Its now time for us to meet.,

I steered my car,
up in the mountain...
closed my eyes...
Its now time for us to be together forever!

Relocation Fever

And yes I have moved to Australia! For doing my masters, frankly speaking I have no idea why did I do it. Left my job, came here sitting jobless, depressed, alone no friends, yet there is hope of a tomorrow..

I live in the country side, its so beautiful full of greenery, parks, nature.. I have seen a lot of birds and that too different varieties red parrot, blue bird, mynah, even crows. Funniest thing crow sound kinda sweet here LoL. Evening walks along the park is mesmerising, people with kids and dogs, just like in movies...

Hope to survive here longer, job hunting on the way! 

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