No one knows me better than me

It has been a long time since I wanted to write bold. Just like every other Indian girls the same thoughts make me worried. What will my family think of me if I write all these?? Will my friends still consider me the same way?? Will the guy who supports me through thick and thin be with me in this??Will any guy marry me after reading all these?? Will people think bad of me??? Errr...and the list of questions is never ending....

I want to write about pain, betrayal, revenge, sex, violence, passion, love, lust..all that comes in my mind to write it down.I am not afraid to admit that, yes I am also scared a bit thinking what will be everyone's reaction to my this step. Hmm as a matter of fact writing what ever that comes to mind gives me peace and joy, I find a world within were I can be myself and rule my world..Guess that's all I ever wanted. 

I was taken back a bit last day when I received the responses for a post where I wrote my heart out!!! A very close one told me " Why do want the whole world to know your damn secrets? Keep ur secrets with you or your loved ones". Yet another was like 50 -50 minded regarding my post...and said two is gud enuf to let out pain.... LOL ..little did he know that there was no pain...But thanks to my girlies, they stood by me and made me feel that what I did was the right thing to do..Even we got to know more abt each other..I came to know that it was not just me who had bad experiences,there are other people too out there striding in the dark.

I think I am doing great, though no one understand my state of mind right now.I would love to have someone to talk to and stick by me now, but I guess...no one knows me better than myself. 

And yes one day I will let me out ...but as of now Life's Crack -a -Lacking for me !!!! Whooaaaaaa...Lifes Calling....Helloo Is it me you r looking for :)